Can some give me detailed thoughtful answer for once?

I have always noticed that I have mood swings but thought it was hormonal. Few weeks ago i remember having a lot of energy and love being at work and working.i felt like energic bunny that was speeding around doing everything fast..i remember wanting to go shopping and just loved being out the house and driving fast..now in the last few weeks i have stayed home just wanted to lay in bed and relax, i didn't feel like doing anything. getting up in the mornings have been hard, work feels like it goes to slow i just want the day to be over so i can go home and be in my bed in front of the computer. i don't really feel like being around many people..i have become very snappy with my boss at work for the last few months.I am in recovery for alcoholism for the last five months..i used drinking for an escape. within the last two months i started smoking incense to escape.it made me feel great for few hrs.i could finally start feeling something instead of emptiness. I quit the smoking incense part, haven't smoked in a week. i been using caffine to feel some sort of energy..but it makes me very jittery.anxious and once its out my system i feel more depressed than ever. My memory is horrible now and I can't seem to keep my mind focused. I been told my birthfather, brother and possibly my birthmother have bipolar/depression in the family..my aunt also had schizophrenia..What do you think? I am afraid if i do have it they will put me on mood stabalizers..but I just want the high energy feeling all the time..i just want to get rid of the low feelings